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Chapter 141: He Was Shutting Me Out

Chapter 141: He Was Shutting Me Out Angelia

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It was forbidden for a professor and a student to be together, the truth sat like a stone in my stomach. If there was one genuinely honorable man I knew, it was Marshall. It was one of his qualities that endeared me to him, he wouldn't disregard the rules, they were in place for a reason. And I couldn't let him risk losing his job, the job that he loves so much because of me. Granted, he would quit after this semester was over but I knew he wanted to get back to teaching

at some point and I didn't want to be the reason he wouldn't get rehired as a professor.

I almost wished I was egotistical, I almost wished I could make myself keep him and persuade him

to keep me and we would be a secret, on one would ever know. I imagined telling him that but in

the end, I could never demand that of him. He had to choose it himself without me whispering in his ear. When Godwin squeezed my shoulder, I finally responded.

"I am fine." I replied.

I

I wasn't fine but for now, I needed him to back off and let me think. What could I do? What was I

there to do? I could talk to my adviser but then again, I needed this class. It was one of the

required courses I nee I needed t to graduate.

As he continued to lecture, it was like he was repeatedly battering my heart, making me bleed and hurt. Steeling myself, I forced myself to turn towards him and open my eyes. My breath caught as

I stared at him and no matter how much I had tried to prepare myself, I would never have been

truly ready for the sight of him. He was wearing a tailored black suit, looking so gorgeously different from what I was used to. This right here, in front of his students was where he belonged

and I could see in his eyes the joy he felt being back at work. I could see the love he had for his

job. My eyes flitted to the people filling the seats and only now seeing that majority was female.

Each and everyone one of of them entirely focused I on our professor, taking in his every word and

devouring him with their gaze. I think I am going to be sick, feeling my stomach clenched and nausea gripping my throat.

Only few days ago, he had f*****ked me so tenderly and it had been easy to imagine that he had been making love to be instead. And only a day ago, I realized I was falling for him. Only a day ago, I had woken up in his arms and today, no matter how little I wanted to face things would quite possibly change between us.

it,

He hadn't seen me yet, I could tell in the way he talked and they way he moved, He was calm and

collected and also relaxed, I didn't want him to notice me because whenever he eventually did,

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whatever had been building between us would shatter and probably me along with it. I couldn't concentrate on what he was saying, all I heard was his voice and not his words. It was a voice I had fallen asleep to and a voice I had woken up to.

it became too much and I had to look away. The blank notebook on my table filled my

vision, the parallel lines the only thing I could see. I was transfixed by them as if I was so desperate to grab onto something other than the reality I was living in at the moment. For a few

moments, my heart slow

Finally,

slowed down and I felt almost calm but it didn't take long until Marshall brought me back. "We won't be doing any icebreaker." He said and the students let out a relieved sigh.

"But I do want t each of you to present yourself to class." He added, they groaned and chuckled.

"I know but I assure you, it will be painless. Your name, ago and major will do. Why don't we start from the back?"

He

must couldn't

have indicated to someone to start because a second later, a girl spoke up. She introduced herself and she was a pretty girl with long black hair. She had gone all out with both the outfit and makeup. We jump to the next girl beside her and the next and the next. I not listen to the girls as they introduced themselves, some more than I would have liked sounded flirtatious as they talked and their eyes only on him. Jealousy ran through my bloodstream and I wanted to tell them that he is mine, they couldn't have him. Of course did but I wanted to. My hands grew calm as the introduction moved further down the rows, closer to me. Marshall still hadn't seen me, as he politely gave his attention to the ones speaking. I was afraid of his reaction when his eye met mine, would he show me the same distant but polite attention as he had shown the others? Would his expression grow cold, knowing the inappropriate connection between him and his student? Or maybe he wouldn't look at me at all. Maybe he couldn't bear it just like I couldn't bear to watch him. Minutes trickled down until the next one to speak was a girl right behind me. I looked anywhere but at him, I was too much of a coward but I swore I could feel his eyes on me. My nerves came alive and the effect he always had on me was all the more present now that I was trying to ignore it. I squeezed my eyes shut as it came time for Godwin to introduce himself, knowing it was my turn after him. I couldn't do this, I couldn't f***ng do it. I didn't know how I would be able to meet his eyes, to see the emotions swirling in his beautiful orbits. My heart beat as fast I was afraid I would pass out and I could barely hear anything over the sound of the blood pounding in my ears. Godwin poked me in the shoulder as he sat back down, urging me to present myself to the class. Taking in a shaky breath, I stood up from my seat and when I opened my eyes, they locked with Marshall's.

And the moment we did, something inside me broke because I could see he was shutting me out. I

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couldn't read his emotions as I had started to learn how to. The only giveaway that even hinted at his feeling was his clenched jaw.

"Umm...I am Angelia, twenty-three years old and my major is Business Administration." I sighed, surprised my voice came out steady when I was feeling anything but.

I hurriedly sat down again, not because of the attention from the students but because of him. A few seconds of him looking at me and I could already tell he was retreating from me, from us as if he was distancing himself. Maybe he was playing a role for the other students benefits but it still hurt. A part of me knew then and there that we would never be the same. The Marshall I saw yesterday with his mischievous smiles and twinkling eyes wasn't the same Marshall that was now

standing in front of me. This one was stern, his voice was firm and distant and he carried an

authority vastly different than when he was dominating me.

This wasn't the man I knew, this person was forbidden and untouched and right now, I was aching for his comfort but he couldn't give it to me. I was afraid he didn't even want to.

After the introduction was over, he talked some about the course and what we should expect for this semester and I couldn't focus on his words. It was torture, having him this close but so far

away. Hearing his voice but not truly recognizing it and watching him because that was all I could do. The second he had seen me, his demeanor had changed. It might not be noticable for anyone except me but I was almost obsessively aware of it, trying to get a glimpse of what was going through his mind. I wondered what he was thinking and feeling. Was he resigned to the fact that we now only should be student and professor or was he trying to think of a way for us both to be together? Of course, I had hoped for the latter but I was steeling myself for the former.

I wondered if his heart was hammering as fast as mine or if his hands were clammy. Did his stomach hurt, seeing me but not being able to have me in his arms? I wondered if he had to fight to stay in control, to not give anything away to the other students just like I was doing, though. I was doing a shitty job at that Chapter Comments rnc1100

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this relationship happened before they knew they were be teacher and student so it not like they broke the rule. they need to ask what happen in that situation. I always confu...