Wicked Kiss

The sun was bright as the daylight subdue the remaining darkness from daybreak. Staring blankly to the middle of the ocean as my thoughts bewildered to her aesthetics.

I kept thinking about confusing things that should have not been able to elude from my stealthy thoughts. About me, kissing her, marrying her.

Reminiscing about the past keeps haunting me. Reminiscing about her cares for me makes my body tremble in so much happiness, doleful and,

Fear...

That maybe someday, she will be going to leave me, and forget about me.

***

"Aiken, what's the meaning of this? Can't we just forget about that testament?" I heard mom's voice echoed from their room.

I was just seven the first time they told me about the testament. Mom was against it, but Daddy does. Now that we're seventeen, it has a great disturbance with my feelings already, now that I understand their wants to keep me from the society.

"Grayfaurd is a one-word person, once is enough for further explanation, Launxi. "I heard him utter.

The last thing I remember, mom was crying while telling me about everything, everything for the Grayfaurds.

"Son, I hope you understand, I don't want this too, but pls do this for your family. " Mom explained while holding me on my shoulders.

That time, I felt unwanted. Why does it have to be me? Why not Alstriem? Why not my twin brother?

"Why mama? Why me?" I said trying to suppress my sobs.

Mommy gripped my shoulders as her eyes glowed in tears. "I know you understand that Alstreim wanted business, right baby?" She said.

I felt my world tremble. "But mama, I can like business too. H-how about my friends? Dark and Zhega? Will they see me again? " I asked. Zhega and Dark were my only friends. I can't risk not seeing them.

"I-I don't know, baby. " Mommy said bringing me to the sofa. She hugged me and kissed me.

We we're at the sala. When someone just opened the door. I jumped when I've seen Alstriem frowning. He hardly throws his basketball on the sofa and faced mom. "Where's daddy?" he coldly said.

Alstreim is a businessperson. He's direct to the point and not really friendly.

"Why would you like to see your father, Alstriem?" Mommy said while staring intently to Alstriem who's frowning and is ready to ran the stairs already.

He looked at mom emotionless "I need to clear something not really acceptable, mama. " he said.

Alstreim looked at me but I looked away. I don't like him to see my sorrows, I know my brother too well.

He nodded and ran on the stairs. I know what he's going to do, probably, he knew already about dad's decision about me and Alstreim to act as one. To act as him.

Father wanted us to act like Lacxous Eilstreim Grayfaurd doesn't exists, he wanted us to act as if there is only one eldest, only Lacxous Alstriem Grayfaurd.

It did not take him more than 15 minutes when he went down, he has a scratch on his right lips also, and probably, daddy did those.

"What happened Alstreim? What did your Papa did?!" mommy said angry and uncomfortable with her big tummy.

Mommy was pregnant with our baby sister. Grayfaurd should have an heiress. While my younger bro was still sixteen that doesn't understand and cares with all of these. Our baby sister that inside mommy was the one waited for this family, and we shall follow the three-child policy as what is written on the testament of my grandpa. But now that we're four, one shall endure the pain and sacrifice.

I was thinking, why would we follow that kind of testament? It's not like it's my fault to be born in this world. But I have nothing to do with it. I need to follow the will of my grandpa.

***

As what they told us, we are using only one name. Alstreim's name.

Sometimes, when I'm at school, I can't tolerate those people who keep on asking me about what happened the other day. I can't answer them correctly because I am not that person. I am not Alstriem.

"Hey pal! I won yesterday!" Dark Carlisle said as he smirked then whistled when a pretty woman got his attention.

I rise my eye brows on his statement. The fuck?

"You mean, what?" I asked.

He stared at me like I've just told him the most impossible thing on earth.

"C'mon! You're just trying to get away, you and heartwill wont this time," he said smirking.

I almost roll my eyes when he mentioned Nox Heartwill. Based on what I remembered, Heartwill was badly in love with that Choing woman.

I sigh, my situation was very complicated. How can I explain to my dear friend that I am not that person who's with him that day? I don't even know what he won.

"About what?" I asked. Knowing Alstriem, he would not tolerate this kind of event. He's the most dangerous man in our family, one bad move and you're dead. I know this is all for fun.

"Seriously man? You have to find women and use your wealth for us to play. It's time for heartwill to move on! " Dark said as if he's the happiest man on earth.

I don't care about money. And I know these guys were not poor.

"Then what?" I asked that made their eyes widen in shock.

I almost punch myself when I realized what I've just said. "I mean, I forgot," I said.

It seems like they believe me and dropped their back on the backrest of canteen the chair. He pointed a direction using his lips, so I looked.

I can feel the slow motion over that place as I stare directly to the woman wearing her white uniform. Her fair skin was perfectly suited to her natural light brown straight hair and her pinkish plump lips. I feel like love at first sight.

I woke up from that daydream when I was tapped by Dark. "Why are you staring to that cute nerd? She's very brilliant, Alstreim. Accelerated four years and very young. " Dark said who caught my stares to the girl. "H-how old is she?" I asked.

I can't just fucking get my eyes off her. I just can't.

"She's Erza Quevaz, I think. She's just fucking thirteen, but already on her senior year, " Dark said.

She's thirteen but in senior like me. I'm seventeen, and she's thirteen, four years gap isn't that bad right?

Erza Quevas, huh?

From this day, you're going to be mine.

***

And that's the first time I started to like this setup. Seeing her practicing their practicum makes me inspired every other day in school. MWF is the schedule of Alstreim while I go to school every TTHS, since I have classes during Saturdays. When at home. Alstreim would just tell me about the assignment and I'll tell him the other way around as well. Alstreim is a good brother, I even feel that he's more affected from this set up than I am.

As I see her every day, I feel alive and happy. Fuck, I never felt this kind of feelings even before.

Alstreim taught me about having flings, well sometimes, we're Grayfaurds and it's on our genes no matter how ruthless we are. But I just can't have flings when my inspiration always keeps me going. I started introducing myself to her and I know she's very shy.

"Hi, what's your name?" I asked her when she's at the library.

She didn't answer immediately and blushed. How cute. And I wish to see that every day.

"Ahm, E-erza." She said as if she can't breathe.

I smiled to her then showed her my hands as sign of shake hands.

"I ah, I-I'm" I said.

I want to tell her I'm Eilstreim, but no one shall know that. And if I'll tell her I'm Alstreim, that would probably hurt me big time, because he's not calling me by that name, but my brother. "Ha?" she said.

I smiled to her. A little bit of lie won't hurt, right?

"I'm Zereck, "I said.

She smiled sweetly and accepted my hands.

Fuck, I'm so happy. Very happy.

***

We only meet 3 times per week, and it did not even reach 3 months when she got colder to me.

I don't know, but I can feel her pain. What's happening to her?

I tried to ask her but I can't just get a chance. These fucking women keeps pestering the hell out of me. I wanted to shout to them that I AM NOT ALSTRIEM WHO BED THEM LAST NIGHT! Fuck it. I don't want to ruin my relationship because of them!

"Hey! Can we rewind what happened last night, baby? You're amazing, you're very amazing. " one girl said while biting her lips.

I just stared to her in a very emotionless one but my world trembled when I've seen Erza's reflection on the glass window of our classroom, crying and.... Hurt.

Before I've got a chance to turn my back to face her, she's gone.

I ran towards her but damn! She's running like an athlete. She went further on our school's fishponds and I also went there.

"liar, *huk* this is the first time I ever loved someone but this is what happens *huk*, wish I didn't meet you *huk* you only want something different from women, *huk* *huk* the reason u did not talked to me yesterday because of her," she said to herself. She's not aware I'm listening.

I was hurt. I wanted to tell her that I am not that person who neglect her yesterday, it was Alstreim. I wanted to woo her and tell her that I am not that kind of person. And who the hell would like to believe me? No one, right?

"I wish I won't *huk* see you again. " she said then turn ahead but I can see how shock she was looking at me.

When it sinks on her, she didn't talk to me, instead she runaway.

And that was the most painful thing that happened to me.

***

I didn't want to go to school after that incident. Mommy sent me to New York to undergo homeschooling and take up the career that I like.

Alstreim wants to become a tycoon and continue ruling the GFC while I would like to take up Criminology, I wanted to become an FBI Agent.

We both graduated in one persona. Alstreim was one of the most amazing and important persons in the world for his success.

He's a great tycoon, bachelor, Grayfaurd and an FBI agent. We got used of moving as one through the years, but still, the same girl is in my heart that I could never forget.

We went back to the Philippines after long years, and we went to the glasshouse immediately because he has to get something.

When we got there, I saw Alstreim frowning as if he saw something not really acceptable. I waited for him on the car and it didn't take long.

"Astrair just brought a girl on our house. That kid. " Alstreim said shaking his head.

Astrair? Since when did he learned housing a woman?

I chuckled too as I started the engine.

As I started the engine, my sight darted to the rear-view mirror and the woman on the window stopped my world.

Was that an illusion?

I blinked three times, but I've seen the same person! This is fucking kidding me!

"What's the matter?" Alstriem asked.

I looked at him. "Was that Erza Scarlet Quevaz?" I asked my twin brother.

He creased his eyebrows and shrugged. He doesn't know too.

I knew she was her, so I began investigating and start giving her letters.

Laeck was my dear friend, and he's willing to help me in things.

By the help of Gadjin Johann Wilfort, our cousin in maternal side. He's the one who put those letters on her car and sneak in her room just to put my messages. I know Gadjin can make it. He made it that long as an undercover agent on GFC, because like me, Gadjin was an FBI agent together with a mission, and that mission is to guard GFC from everyone. GFC is really at dangerous state especially that it becoming more and more successful.

I just can't forget the time when I've kissed her on the elevator. She's matured. She became more and more beautiful! God, I can live with her forever.

Not when the time Gadjin told me about everything.

"El, there are lots of girls out there, not just Erza. Astrair loves her so much."

I can feel my world tremble. Why? Why are these things happening to me?

All my life I lived in so much sacrifice. Am I still even allowed to be happy?

I can do everything to her, I will do everything for her.

Alstreim saw my sorrows. He was all I have. And he promised me to take a revenge. But I can't. I can't hurt Erza, I can't hurt the woman I love.

"Don't worry, brother. I'll do everything for you in return. " Alstriem said while me, cried in so much pain.

I hate to live like this.

I am walking towards her direction. She is shaking, she is crying holding that piece of paper. It was very hard for me to wrote that letter. Very hard. "Erza, "I finally uttered in front of her.

God, I missed calling her name after all these years.

"L-Lacxous?" she said crying. Her nose was red and her cheeks as well. she's crying hard.

"Remember me?" I asked while staring at her.

She shut her eyes, letting the tears flow even more.

"Z-zereck!" she said sobbing.

I smiled. Finally, she recognized me. I still can't understand why she didn't remember Alstreim when we got acquainted in college.

"Sorry!" she said and covered her face with her palms.

I bite my lips trying to suppress my sobs.

It hurts, damn it.

It's my niece's baptismal, who happened to be the child of the woman I love.

I went to her and hugged her.

She hugged me back.

"I-I don't know. S-sorry! Sorry!" she cried.

I shut my eyes very tight and feel her presence, for I know this will be the last.

"I love you, Erza. But I had already accepted the fact that we are not really meant for each other. "I said trying to strengthen my voice.

She cried even more. "You were my fucking first love," she stated.

I laugh.

Bullshit. If only I have enough courage, I would have tied you up.

"Then do you regret Astrair happened to you?" I asked again.

She shrugged on my chest.

"I was your first love, but your true love buried me alive, "I said.

She didn't move so I raised her head.

"I never regretted meeting you, Erza. Remember that. "I said. And for the last time, I hugged her.

"Thank you," she stated.

I smiled then walked away.

While walking, I think my heart was being crushed. Fuck. God, if this pain has a consequence, I will endure this. But I just can't keep my feelings.

I really love her. Erza, you are the best in me but I can't keep these feelings hold on because I already accepted the fact that you are not for me. Thank you for letting me feel the greatest love of all.

If God will give me the one that I am looking for, I will make you a lesson. And I'll make sure to overpass the love I am feeling towards you to the woman that is rightfully for me.

I am almost on the door when a cute fat kid met me.

"You hug mommy!! " he said pouting.

I smiled. This kid reminds me of Astrair.

I shook my head. Good God, you already gave me the sign to give up.

I leveled my face to him; I know he's my nephew. Because Astrair really looks like him when he's still a baby.

When I'm on the parking lot. I immediately started the engine while listening to my favorite old song.

"And I'd give up forever to touch you

'Cause I know

That you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven

That I'll ever be

And I don't wanna go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

When sooner or later it's over

I just don't wanna miss you tonight

And I don't want

The world to see me

'Cause I don't think

That they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am."

I am Lacxous Eilstreim Grayfaurd, and I am complicatedly in love, with my brother's.........Wife.

THE END

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If you want to read the other one, it's entitled "HE GOT ME PREGNANT'. You might want to check it out! Love you!